Uhm Hmmm.

Well, the psychiatrist agrees with my primary care physician, or PCP, as they refer to him. See, I'm even learning the lingo. She thinks that I am probably bipolar, albeit, bi-polar type II, which is less severe than regular bi-polar disorder.The actual visit wasn't as bad as I thought... the Dr. looks like she is about my age, maybe a few years older, so it's kind of like talking to a friend-type of person, who is qualified and knows what they're talking about.

However, I had a terrible night that night. I went home to bed and stared at the ceiling for hours. The apartment was a mess, the kitties were ignoring me, and I hadn't eaten, and I just didn't care. Ben came over later  that evening and we laid in bed and talked and he made me eat... Good Ben.

Since then, I am pretty sure I'm on an up-swing. Friday night was kind of euphoric - full of energy and talking and loving food. Saturday was also good. We hung around Ben's place and watched a lot of True Blood, did some grocery shopping, cooked dinner at his place and shared a bottle of wine. Sunday was a football game in the morning, and then I took a nap at his place... was feeling really tired until we got back to my place, where I kind of snapped out of it and into something... else. We went to World Market and Pier One, where I found a nice lamp (:-D), then to Keegan's for some comfort food and a beer, then to Safeway because I had to get some light bulbs for the lamp. Then we came home, and I went on a cleaning spree. Cleaned the kitchen, picked up the living room, rearranged the bookshelf, cleaned the bathroom and scrubbed the floor... still wasn't sleepy so we played some Mancala and Rummy til midnight when I decided I should probably decide to try to sleep and Ben went home.

And this morning, my eyes snapped right open and I'm awake and ready to go! And my thoughts (i've noticed all weekend) are running around... there's always a song in the back my head, and a bajillion different random thoughts bouncing around at the same time (also symptomatic of the manic side of bipolar).

And now I have to run to work... maybe I'll write more in here later today.