A Spare Evening

I barely know what to do with myself tonight. There is nothing that absolutely needs to be done!

Yesterday I took my dreaded LOMA test that I've been cramming for, and passed it, but also signed up for another class, which is due on March 31st. So, I *could* study for that, but really am not feeling up for it. Not after all that cramming.

I think I have a very real stress problem. And the xanax isn't cutting it. All it does it knock me out. Last night, I went over to Ben's... so on edge. I took 1/2 a xanax, ate the bowl of pasta he made me, watched 15 minutes of a UFC fight, and promptly fell asleep on the couch until 1am. That's not fun... how I can make a relationship work if I'm always stressed, always working on something, or always sleeping?

Tonight was supposed to be my 'relaxing' night. No school, no work, no exercise. Instead, I'm worrying about getting fat (because I ate a bag of popcorn), studying for my next LOMA class, and upcoming events.

I did take a nice hot bath though. And made a delicious, healthy dinner consisting of yellow squash and a chicken & shrimp fajita, with raw diced tomatoes, black olives, red onion and jalapenos. Lots of fresh foods.

And I did watch a movie - Parent Trap. The Lindsey Lohan version. Then I got all stressed out.

At least tomorrow is Friday. My boss has lately only been in the office on Friday, thanks to work trips, and so I'm sure the day will pass by quickly as we'll be in and out of meetings. *crosses fingers that that will be the case* A raise would still be nice too...

Tonight, I considered reading a book. Then stressed out trying to figure out which book. It *has* to be something beneficial, not just luxurious, and not part of a series, and not too long, and not a stupid short story, and not too engrossing so that I'll go to bed on time... I decided not to read anything.

And now... child's pose to relieve some stress...

I can't believe I'm stressing about stress... how stupid is that?! Don't tell me.

**postscript**
I didn't get to write about PounceQuick is back to his normal health and playfulness. I had to put him to sleep on Monday. :'-(