Attempt to Update

Hello readers. I'm going to do my best to update you on what's going on in the Life of Beth lately... but my mind is rather blank.

Family. Grandma has, at the most, nine or ten more days, according to the doctor. She removed her food IV, and within a couple of days will be in a coma. Sarah, my sister, is pregnant again, thus goes the circle of life. The twins, last time I talked to them, are doing OK.

Living Situation. This is actually going well. I was able to break off my lease, and thus will be able to start saving money/paying off more debt next month.  Other than the longer drive to work on two freeways, the transition is finally settling down. There are still some areas we need to work out, namely a computer desk for me downstairs, and I'd like to get some rugs for the downstairs since they're all tile and pretty cold. Ben has been very helpful and adaptable with moving everything around.  Now, if the kitties will just adapt to each other...

School. My semester is over. I'm taking at least the summer off. An online college offers the next course I need, but I've seriously been considering giving up the whole 'writing thing'. It's SO hard, and I'm so tired. And I've been seriously doubting my ability to write anything in-depth, or even in enough quantity to actually finish anything. The thing about writing is that you never, ever get a break from it. When you're not writing, you're thinking about writing, and stressing out about not writing. It takes a toll. Why can't I just go to work, come home and relax like most other normal people?

Re-Evaluating. During my younger years, people often commented on my brains and talents... but hey, I grew up in a small town, and the world is freaking huge. My talents and brain are, at best, average. I don't consider myself sharp, or even extraordinarily bright. That phase, the 17-23 year old phase, when people think they're invincible, is over. I am who I am, and I'm tired of trying to please everyone or convince them of my value. Actions are more powerful than words.