Life's Little Ironies

I've learned a few things in the past week.

1) Xanax will Knock.You.Dafuck.Out.
2) Cymbalta seems to be helping?
3) Racy photos on FB make for some interesting conversation with old school friends.
4) Remember sports attorney guy? Busted for 'luring' underage girls.

I feel like I dodged a bullet on the last one. Because I totally would have dated him if he had been ready for a relationship. And guess what? It would have been a complete deja vu of my whole last relationship.

As for the photos...well, the photo isn't really racy, but it does show some cleavage... This one guy from school has been on & off again checking with me to see if I'm single and if I'm ever going to visit North Carolina in the near future. He turned out pretty great himself, but I'm not going there. To North Carolina, or to see or hang out with anyone from school. Ha.

The meds... well, I was previously only on Cymbalta, and I was experiencing this weird side effect which made it hard to breathe. It felt like I was leaking oxygen before it got to my lungs. The doctor said it was anxiety, even though I wasn't *feeling* anxious and that my body was going through a minor panic attack. So he put me on Xanax. And boy did that help. I was super tense in my back and shoulders and was unconsciously grinding my teeth a lot, and worrying, worrying, worrying. Since I started taking that though, I've been grinding my teeth much less, and far less tense, and am not so obsessed with things that I can't change. It also knocked me on my backside for at least 2/3rd's of the weekend. From Friday night to Sunday night, I must have been awake only about 15 hours. That's stretching it.

The doctor is still trying to get a referral to a psychiatrist which accepts my insurance. Once we get that set up, I'll be going to see him fairly regularly, I imagine, and eventually get weaned off the meds altogether. To that end, I changed my work shift so that I have an extra hour in the afternoon to go to all of these appointments. I now work from 7:30-4. I don't mind getting up early - it seems to make the day go by faster, so it's a win-win.

That's all for now. I'm going to play a game of age of empires.