It's been almost two months since I've received any sort of check for florida boys' loans or debts. I will survive! I have to keep telling myself this, with twenty-five dollars in the bank which is earmarked for my psychiatrist co-pay on Thursday, and a quarter tank of gas left in the car to make it til Friday. I did get some lunches at the store the other day, so I won't go entirely hungry, but it'll be tight. The good news is that I'm losing weight - down to a solid 118 now (sometimes less).
In good news, I get paid on Friday, and two weeks after that, I get another check, and a bonus check. And hopefully a check from florida in between now and then. That would be awesome. I'm looking forward to paying off my credit cards and that loan. Ideally, I'll do that before getting any more furniture, but we'll see what happens.
In mental news, I'm now taking 60 mg of Cymbalta each morning, and xanax as needed. I can usually tell I need it when I start getting tense and my chest tightens up, making it hard to breathe. Like now. I've gone without for two days, but... I also slept about 2/3rds of the weekend. Again. That was without xanax. What's up with that? Is that a sign of depression? Excessive sleep? It felt like I needed it... or was too lazy to get up...
I also have my first psychiatrist appointment Thursday afternoon. I'm scared.
don't be scared! you'll be fine :) 60mg? that seems like alot. But what would I know,...I think I was on 10 or 20? Yes, excessive sleep(at least from what I've observed) is cause by depression. It will get better! love you!
ReplyDeleteMake sure to tell the shrink about the sleeping patterns. You probably hit the nail on the head, my guess is you needed it. The last couple of months don't sound like they have been easy so it's probably catching up, that combined with new meds would knock most people out.
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